How did Osho come into my life?

Date : 25.05.2025 

Chapter: 01

History is studied by dividing it into two periods; Before Christ (BC) and After Christ (AD). To study my own life, I have divided my life into two periods. The first period is before Osho and the second period is after Osho. The first period covers only sixteen years. In childhood and adolescence, the birth of thousands of questions used to trouble me a lot. It was also not known that how the answers to these questions would be found. At this age, there was no one to grope like a blind person. The number of unanswered questions kept on increasing. If I thought about one question, a series of ten new questions would emerge. If I started thinking about that series, that series would become crooked. When my energy would try to straighten that series, the series would start going up and down.

I could not understand why I was the only one who was drenched in the daily questions of life. It seemed as if unanswered questions were not the property of one life. Looking at the number of questions, I started believing in the rule of previous life. A conflict arose between the questions and the personality that was being created, which led to a state of conflict. You will be surprised to know that duality is the mother of sorrow and suffering in life.

In this world of duality, life was getting hurt by struggling. If a hurt life gets the support of even a straw, then there can be a hope of crossing the boat. If a ray of hope is visible, then one should understand that light is very near. If the desire to be illuminated becomes strong, then even existence becomes eager to cooperate. When I used to look at people, it seemed that this whole earth is a house of sorrows. No one here is happy. I myself was bearing the pain of sorrow and anguish, at the same time, when I looked at my family members, I felt that they were also in anguish. Only one question kept flashing in my mind again and again that what can become a shore to cross this ocean of sorrow.

I had understood that it was impossible to cross the ocean of sorrow without a shore.

The rivers of good and bad thoughts in my mind were neither allowing me to concentrate nor to reach the origin of my sorrow. If I tried to ask someone the way out of the river of sorrow and pain, I would feel that this person is also in sorrow and pain like me. A patient cannot treat a patient. Only such a shore can help me cross the river of sorrow and pain, who has himself become free from these diseases. Whose inner light has been lit; who is an enlightened person.

There was a voice coming from within that I would definitely get the company of such a person.

Existence will surely help. But, when and how? There was no answer to this.

After going to college, this question started coming up again and again that who am I? What is my real self? I have good will towards everyone, yet why is restlessness entering my mind? What is the root cause of this restlessness, anguish and sadness? These questions were born again and again but due to not getting answers, they went and got stored in the subconscious mind. In this way, a stock of unanswered questions started accumulating in the subconscious mind.

When I discussed these unanswered questions with my college classmate Suresh Verma, he did not give a direct answer. He said-

        "Come to my house in the evening. Will discuss." I was not satisfied with this rude reply, but there was no harm in taking a chance.

I reached Suresh Verma's house exactly at 6 in the evening.

A small house built in the streets.

Without saying anything, he took me to his study room. He took a cassette and put it in the tape recorder and started the tape recorder. I saw that it was printed on the cassette - "Anhad Mein Bisram". A picture of a saint-like person was printed on it.

That cassette was of ninety minutes. Both of us were getting hypnotized while listening to that cassette. There was magic in his voice. It felt like this voice was coming from some other world. The choice of words was such that not a single word was irrelevant. When the cassette ended and the tape recorder stopped with a sound, then we came out of hypnosis. When we washed our eyes, we regained consciousness.

In this way, the then Bhagwan Shri Rajneesh entered my life with his heavenly words. My mind became calm. The level of restlessness came down for once. After this, slowly I started getting answers to my questions in Osho's discourses.

In my opinion, Osho Rajneesh is absolutely unique among all the mystics till date. He mainly made the stressed humanity taste the taste of silence and meditation and made them realize that man himself is the source of his own stress. By the way, I was a contemporary of a great consciousness like Osho. I believe that Osho has revealed every mystery of life through his amrit discourses. He has explained in detail the mysterious sutras of the saints and sufis of history in the current context. Therefore, all his explanations seem new and relevant. There is hardly any saintly thinker who has remained outside the scope of Osho's amrit discourses.

The Chinese enlightened person Lao Tzu lived many centuries ago. No one in India even knew about Lao Tzu. Osho made Lao Tzu popular in India by explaining his esoteric and contradictory sutras. Today, a compilation of his discourses on Lao Tzu is available to us in the form of ten books. The world should appreciate that Osho lifted the curtain from these contradictory but mysterious esoteric sutras. He made Lao Tzu available for us to read.

I would like to clarify that Osho is not a part of any tradition or sect. Osho is such a wise man who saved humanity from sinking into the abyss and expressed the truth as he experienced it without any hesitation. He has nothing to do with whether you are happy or angry.

This question definitely arises in the mind of every human being that who am I? What is my real nature? Only Osho has answered this question of human beings. Therefore, Osho cannot be counted in any sect or tradition. He is a mystic, a scientist of the inner world and a fearless rebellious consciousness. In his short life, his interest was in giving a new lifestyle to humanity so that it can recognize its real form and live a happy life. He always kept inventing such meditation practices so that the flowers of happiness can bloom in our lives.

I had the good fortune of listening to Osho's Amrit Vaani with my friend Suresh Verma in the year 1983. It was my first year in college. At that time Osho was known as Bhagwan Rajneesh. He was living in Rajneeshpuram in America with his ten thousand sannyasis. I had listened to the discourses on a tape recorder with Suresh Verma. Suresh Verma had rented that cassette from Swami Yog Kundan for fifty paisa per day. After that we would rent it for fifty paisa every day, listen to it twice and deposit Swami Yog Kundan's cassette in the library.

Even after four decades, I still remember when we heard Osho's discourse titled "Anahad Mein Bisram" for the first time. In that discourse, Osho was saying-

"And he who has found that void has found rest."

To be continued.....

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